hate and anger

Going private. For how long, i dont know.
I just need a space to vent the anger within me, where i can blabber about how fucking unfair life is. i dont like to talk about my feelings verbally because i hate to see the expressions on pple's faces. dont tell me to compare it with those less fortunate cos i dont fucking give a damn, my expectations is not their expectations. the people i live around is not the same they live around. i want the best, and i dont get the best. in this stressful shit life that i lead, when i dont get it, i get fucking pissed. and why should i even bother about how the others feel when i cant even love myself. i admit that i'm a selfish bitch and it's just me. it's not like i want to be, but it's just that it's been cultivated over the crap 19yrs of this shithole life where i watched everyone and everything in my life and not once did i feel that it was fucking fair. why is it that some stupid annoying pple that have mouths as foul as garbage leading such a fucking lucky life?! just because of a pretty face? and i dont get why some pple can still lead such a happy life after bringing so much hurt into someone else's life! i hate myself for not being able to accept pple for who they are. i hate myself for always wanting to compare. i hate myself for being so jealous and petty about everything. seriously, what have i done.
save ur comments for urself and i dont need pity.